Dear Tuesday,

So I know it's already Thursday, but I'd like to dedicate a post to two days ago, Tuesday.
Dear Tuesday, you are not my favorite day. I wish there were more hours in the day each weekly visit I get from you. When my alarm starts singing "Forever" by Chris Brown at 5 in the morning, I want to throw it across the room and stay in my perfectly-cozy bed. After pushing snooze 1-4 times I'm surprisingly able to drag myself into the bathroom, only to see a scary pale face looking back at me in the mirror. Belonging to me. I am usually rushing because I need to be out the door NO later than 5:39. And remember the snooze pushing? Yeah...skills.
6am, patients start arriving, and suddenly I am the best actress. "No I'm not tired, are you?"
Some hours pass in a blur, eventually it's ten o'clock. Time to make like a tree and leaf (haha?). Class starts at ten thirty. I get to the Family Life building at my usual time of 10:28. All the good seats are taken by ladies who arrived like AN HOUR early. I get the stink eye from a special handfull of them that I just love to death, {sarcasm will kill you}I sit down and mind my manners. Class= 2 hours long.
Back to the office.
A few hours of staying busy, being tempted by cookies in a large jar that Ms Ropelato places in front of me for patients to take on their way out the door into the world. Nothing better than starting a new journey with a chocolate chip cookie in hand.
Eventually it is 3 o'clock. Patients gone, sleepy staff. It's time for a nap. 4:15, Chris Brown again. BLAST you, Chris Brown! "Woke up, fell out of bed, dragged my comb across my head..."
At 4:58 I arrive at the Maxxinista House. Tuesday, you feel the need to fill five hours of my life with required customer service and asking "Every Customer, Every Time" if they'd like to apply for the rewards card. On a bright note, two people said yes this Tuesday. Shocking. We closed up at 9:30, saying goodbye to the lady with the poodle that had been there for 3 hours and 19 minutes. She left empty handed. She forgot her credit card. She talked to her dog. She's always there. For hours.
Hallelujahs began ringing at 9:59 when manager Lindsay said "Let's go home!" Yay.
10:00. Punched out. I'm about to call it quits on you, Tuesday. What keeps me going? Surprising my cute fiance by driving out to Nibley to spend a few minutes and kisses with him. But we must go to bed, we're both tired. I've heard tired can be bad when you're with someone you love. Yes? yes.
Remember me telling him I need to leave at 11:00? Remember how you let the clock keep ticking past that? No worries, I totally left at 11:20. Tuesday, you were the first night I was in bed before midnight this whole new year. Thank you.
I'm looking forward to dreading you for the next five days.

Sincerely, Ash

CAUTION: LONG ENTRY

So today I was on campus for a good 9 hours. In those 9 hours I had to utilize the toilet one time. That one time I need the toilet I had a stooper of thought: Am I the only one who walks to the very end just so I'm not next to another person who might hear me? And I'm pretty sure 8/10 times I pick a stall that is clogged or the seat is dirty, proceed to a further stall, which is dirty 5/10 times...and so on. Thus wasting the precious minutes away.

I think I'd call that potty-stage-fright.

Another thing: Am I the only one who drives around the parking lot just to find the nearest, most convenient spot to park? If I would just be a little less lazy I would cut time down, get some exercise with those extra 12 steps, AND save gas! Yeah...what have I been thinking?

Random.

This weekend was fun :) On Friday I drove down to Bountiful for a bridal shower thrown for yours truly by my future  in-laws. It was a lot of fun and people are so kind and generous. FYI: the Feller girls are really crafty and cute...I need to work on that!
I stayed at my moms house for the weekend and it was really good to spend time with her, it's a rare occurrence. On Saturday Mom, Mr Feller and I went to Kaysville and ordered our wedding cake! It'll be so cute. And hopefully tasty. THEN we headed to Salt Lake for Little Miss Avery's 2nd birthday party. It was themed around Woody from Toy Story, he's basically Ave's boyfriend (she's obsessed.) THEN Mom took me shopping for some mother-daughter time. It was really good to spend even just an hour not planning the wedding. Just me and mom. She got me cute black flats and some make up. Mom. I'll try my best not to stink up these shoes right away :)
THEN she treated Mr Feller and I to dinner at the Red Iguana 2. I ordered a shredded pork enchilada. Sounds delicious, right? Yes. I asked  the waiter for zero spiciness. He must have thought that was a joke because my food was the spiciest on the table! Not funny sir. Jon was sweet enough to trade me dishes.
After dinner my date and I said our goodbyes to my mom then headed to his cousins wedding reception. It was really fun and the bride was beautiful. THEN we went to Jon and Emily's to play games with friends. I love going home, away from Logan. It kind of helps me put things into better perspective and just relax. I think it's because I'm not surrounded by a bunch of people that aren't the nicest and my family and friends are from anywhere but Logania. Logan is wonderful, sometimes it's just too small.
On Sunday I spent the morning with my mom, planning wedding once again. Then I headed to Aubrey's to hang out with her for a little bit. She just gave birth (2 weeks ago) to her second child, Noah Shaner. He is ADORABLE! Aubrey is so strong, she gave birth in her own home, not medicine or shots, nothin'. How empowering! She slept for a little bit while I was there, which I'm so glad because if I feel sleep deprived just from staying up past midnight having FUN (in most cases), she must be exhausted getting less than 4 hours of sleep each night.
Oh the joys of motherhood :)
Later on Sunday my mom came with me to dinner at the Feller's home. Roast beef, corn, green beans, potatoes, rolls...yum. More wedding planning occurred. Feeling a little overwhelmed. It was fun to have her there with me.
And now I'm back in Cache Valley. Lots of homework, upcoming tests, work everyday but today, places to go, people to see, things to do...yay.
I'm sorry this was long and picture-less. If you didn't read it, it is allllll good.
Stacie, I need to call you! And BEFORE it gets too late at night.

giving in

I've been debating whether to post our engagements before we send out announcements or to wait...and I've decided to share just a few. Some of these you've already seen, and if you see some of them on the announcement (which isn't done yet)...I apologize.

Enjoy!

Our photographer: Kelley Howe. Check her out at khowephotography.com

date night

Jon and I have an official date night each week: Wednesday. This just started last week when we decided that we don't ever go on dates, and the weekends are crazy busy with marriage stuff and everything. 

This week? One of our favorites: Rumbi Island Grill. The plan was to try a different restaurant that we've never been to on each date, but the one we were planning on was closed down...for the day or forever, I'm not sure. SO we chose a place we've probably gone to like 20 times. It never fails :)

 Jon with some pulled pork amazing-ness.  

 Ash devouring her Hawaiian Teriyaki delight

Mmm mmm good.

Yesterday I had to give a lesson/presentation/illustrated talk in my orientation class (remember my sad cooking demo?). I COULD NOT decide what would be best for me to talk on. Then about a week ago I just really felt like I needed to talk about eating disorders. I knew it wasn't in the curriculum for FCSE, which the presentation was required to stay in that curriculum.. but I just really felt like I needed to. Maybe there were things I needed to learn. Maybe someone in the class needed to hear it. 

I don't know, maybe I wasn't supposed to do it on that? 

It went better than the food demo. Hallelujah, right? I'm pretty sure college age ladies going into teaching {just like me} are much more intimidating than high school students. Just sayin'.

Anyway, amidst my blog-stalking just after I decided to research more on eating disorders, I came across one that I will now forever follow. This blog had a post totally based on eating disorders, different misconceptions and truths about them, how many women and men are affected by it, how serious it really is, and so on. Thank you C.Jane for your post, your blog, living the life you do. You are a great example to me.

 

 

43 days, people! 43 days.

.sneak.peak.

Jon and I had our engagement shoot with Kelley Howe last Friday. She was so sweet and cute, the awkwardness I was expecting to feel from posing in front of a complete stranger was nowhere present. Kelley was so kind of fun to work with. Thanks, Kelley! 

In sewing 2040 we're required to make a pair of pants and a blouse. At the beginning of the semester I thought, "Piece of cake!" Oh how naive I can be at times. I am currently working on my pants. I chose to make shorts since it requires less fabric and they aren't as fancy as longer pants. I feel like I'm looking at blueprints, not a pattern for simple looking shorts! After being completely lost in class on Friday I called Dee Dee, the sewing goddess. Jon and I made a quick trip to Bounty-land Sunday after church and boy-oh-boy was she helpful! On top of that, we were fed 1/2 pound burgers and brownies in celebration to Houst's and Boyd's birthdays. My youngest sibling is now 15, HOLY!  

Can I just tell you stalkers how hard it is to focus on school, work, blogging, etc...when you are planning a wedding? Man. I don't suggest you try it. 

We only have a little less than 7 weeks and I feel like there's lots more to be done! 

What bothers you?

Something that drives me crazy: when you smile at someone and they don't smile back. It's not necessarily because I need to be smiled at...I think it's because I am guilty of instantly thinking that person is mean or doesn't like me, even if they're a total stranger.

Yeah, I know, right? 

I'm a baby. 

So today we're finally taking our engagements-a week and a half later. Our photographer got the flu on the original day, then the rain came down for 24 hours on our make-up day. So here we are, Friday March 18th, it's windy with a 10% chance of rain. And NOBODY better get sick. Thanks :) haha

I'm grateful for this coming weekend. We have no major plans other than work {with some wedding planning in between of course}. The next 6 or 7 weekends (however many are left) following will be crazy. Full of showers, meetings, birthday parties, temple stuff, moving into our new place,wedding, etc. Oh and 3rd exams and finals are still approaching. Joy. 

Something else that bothers me: when my fingers swell up. I get a little indentation from my ring. It has become permanent and it looks funny. Nothing better than fat fingers ;)

So my advice- be a smile-backer. People like when you show your pearly whites, or even just curve your lips a little bit. 

Any advice on how to avoid swollen fingers? 

ps: I'm grateful these bothers won't kill me. 

I am officially done with today. It needs to be over. It needed to be over at approximately 9:00 this morning.

How has your Tuesday been?

accomplishments

Jon+Ash= SUPER productive today. minus a few set backs you shall read about.

We woke up early this morning (if you consider 8 early. Please say you do) and headed South... From Logania. 

We stopped at the Layton hills mall {which DOMINATES the Logan mall by a long shot} and purchased 20 ties. Um yes, 20. This wedding is going to be a orange-yellow-aqua PARTY! 

After failing to find orange Vans for my fiance, we headed to the Centerville Target to register. Totally not planned, but I'm so glad we did it! It was funny to see what things each of us thought were necessary and things we didn't agree on wanting. It didn't take too much for one of us to go with the others choice though. 

After two hours of scanning, we headed to Joanns fabric and picked out fabric for the tables. The cuteness I have been seeing in my head has almost become a reality :)

Next: Dee dee met us (at Joannes) and we went to the infamous Jake's Over the Top and stuffed our faces (not really though). THEN, on to White Elegance. I found a temple dress =]

woo woo!

Later we tried to go to a skateshop (Surface) in Bountiful that is closed down apparently. Vans failure numero dos. 

SO we headed to the Gateway. Shopping at an outdoor mall in the pouring rain-turned snow flakes probably isn't the funnest thing I've done. But I don't know, maybe? 

Anyway. No orange Vans. In any of the 3 stores that carry Vans! Sad sad day. That equals 6 failed attempts at finding those needed shoes (including the frowned-upon day in Logan). 

Our next choice: turquoise. Too bad Journey's was the only store that had them in stock...in every size but Jon's! Wow. 

We headed to a skate shop that we found online in Salt Lake...about 15 blocks East of the Gateway. Guess what? It's out of business. 

I turned to Jon and said, "I'm really grateful we aren't angry people." He {sarcastically} replied, "Oh I am ticked!" Pretty sure I've never heard the word "ticked" come out of my boys mouth. Haha, good one, Jon. 

Onto the next destination: Bountiful! I dropped Fell off at Jon and Em's for Brady's bachelor partay. The turquoise Vans search will just have to be put on hold til tomorrow...which is when we need them. Whoever might be reading my ramblings right now, please cross yo' finga's that the Layton mall will not fail us once more. Gracias.

Well I think I'll go snuggle with my loyal friend, Manda, right now. She's cute and furry, and a chihuahua. 

Goodbye. Goodnight.

Fr-iLoveYou-day

Hello weekend. 

I was beginning to think you wouldn't get here.

My Chem teacher, Dr. Jacobsen just earned the "Best Person of the Day" award for canceling class as soon as we all sat down today. Wise decision, sir. 

As I was walking home from my canceled, I had some thoughts that I'd like to share. 

#1- My new personal goal: I will get my hair trimmed every 2 months. {It's a little ridiculous when it takes 2+ years to grow 4 inches of hair}. I may need your guys' encouragement/friendly little reminders on this one. 

#2- Spring is here. For today at least. Just ignore the snow on the grass.

#3- The sound of making a call is annoying. RING RING. They should come up with something new, besides the tunes we are encouraged to enjoy while our party is reached. 

#4- Dr. Jacobsen=awesome. 

#5- I'm really excited to marry Jon. 

#6- I wish your re-growth hair roots would just be the same color as the color you have at that time. Life would be easier. We'd all save money, unless we are addicted to hair-change. 

#7- Spring break is the best decision school's ever made. 

So last night Jon, Mindi, and I spent quite a while making the final decision on the tables/decorations for the reception. You'd think it would be simple...or at least I did...thanks for your help, Mindi :)

For all the sistas and brothers and parents that might read this blog. or post. Here are the colors. Please try to coordinate. Thanks guys!

ps- guess what's being altered right now? :)

A toast. I mean post.

Before I begin my afternoon/evening of studying things I don't like (um...Chemistry) I would like to make a toast. I mean a post.

While others out there are OBVIOUSLY experiencing Bieber-fever, Miss Ashley here is having some serious symptoms of

Spring-fever.

Will it ever come?

Okay, I know it's only March, but for reals Logan...no more snowstorms!

I can't find my car. Have you seen it?

Saturday night was the last home game for the Aggie Basketball team. They are champs. WAC champs, actually. Those boys are pretty impressive! GO BIG BLUE. 

Next week is Spring break. No major plans...hopefully some long naps, nice back massages, pedicures, night time walks on the beach... a girl can dream. Maybe out of those options I'll be able to squeeze in a half hour nap or something. It'll be a normal week, minus school. Jonny boy and I are taking our engagements :). 

Are you as excited as I am?

Well well well, my 5 minutes is up. I'll end this post with some pictures of awesome people and a toast to...spring!

a MOLDY situation

We had cleaning checks today. Apparently GIRLS like to get ready in very steamy places, thus creating all the mold in our windows and ceilings and cupboards. 

OH WAIT.

That is false. The male apartments were just as moldy.

I wish I would have taken a picture of our bathroom...the ceiling was practically black. An hour of scrubbing later, it looks as good as new! Yay. 

Oh. We failed the cleaning check. Thank you M.O.L.D.Y windows :)

I wish I had some exciting things to blog about. But I don't.

I started a new job yesterday...that is pretty exciting. Say hello to the newest and most inexperienced receptionist to date! (did you say it? hello)

That's right, ladies and gentlemen. I am now employed at Logan Peak Dental Care. If you need a dentist that is really great and reasonably priced...come on in! My boss is awesome. The staff is awesome. Oh, did I mention I work with my future hubby? Yeah, how lucky am I? :). I'll barely see him, since he'll be working in the patients mouths while I'm working in their files/schedules/other-stuff-I-have-no-idea-how-to-do-yet. Two days down and I'm enjoying it so far. 

That is NOT something I would call a moldy situation.

I'm still working for the Maxx, I think I love it too much to let it go at the moment. If I could just bring my Maxxinistas with me to the other side of town to help me answer phones...then I'd quit!

If anyone knows where to find cute light strings for decoration purposes (at a reasonable price) please dare to share.

Well blog-stalkers. Bon voyage. I will miss you. Until next time.

Look what I found. Yes that is the boy I fell in love with. And his bff Benzo.

but who's counting?

In 75 days 21 hours and 14 minutes 

I will be Mrs. Ashley Feller. 

Oh that just sounds so official.

But I like it :)

here's a love story

Yesterday was the day of love. And it was the best day of love I've ever had. 

Thanks to My Feller :)

It began at 8:30 in the morning with a knock on the door I knew belonged to him.

 

French toast and one white balloon.

 I came home from class to a big green box by my front door...

 

Jon and I were planning on going on a much needed run. It seemed as good as a vacation.

Before we went he gave me a note saying "2, a run with just me and you"...and two more balloons.

Later on, that same knock...

Three more balloons and we were off to the area I lived in my Freshman year and we looked at the photo album I made for him of us almost 3 years ago. It was really cute. 

At the end of the album I found this...

  

We love talking in the car. So we went back, and he pulled out 4 more balloons from his trunk. 

We got in the car again. He asked me to get a cd out of the glove box, and to my surprise (as he's so proud of himself, haha) found this...

We were off to Beehive Grill, my favorite restaurant in Logania. We were met with 5 more balloons there. Besides the 30+ minute wait and the fact that our appetizer came AFTER our meal (I know, right?) and the waitress didn't come around enough to see that we needed water refills about 20 minutes before she noticed, it was really tasty. I still love that place, their burgers are divine.

Ok, so we were off to his house for a dance party with his Sis, Bro, and their cute girls.

 

It was so much fun. The girls gave the living room a heart attack, and there was even a disco ball. It was a party for sure! Then...

 

Isn't he the sweetest?

We went to the temple and sat on the benches across the street. He played me a song that he wrote while on his mission...and WOW, he is amazing. It was really touching. Then he said lots of special things (that I won't include here) and got on one knee, grabbed a little box out of his guitar case, and...you know what happened :). 

We're engaged! 

28 balloons later, I said yes- just in case any of you were wondering.

I can't imagine anyone else I'd rather spend the rest of eternity with. I love him. He is my Feller, my best friend, my high school sweetheart, my missionary, my returned missionary, my other half, my future, my Captain :)

 

I love you Jon!I can't wait to see what the future holds for us.

 

 

 

Are you cooky?

Today I made banana cookies. it was cooky. 

What an interesting experience... I felt nervous, under-prepared (though I prepped for quite a while!), had the nerve-sweats (have you had those??), awkward, yeah...  basically I downgraded to my junior high self.

All these feelings came just before I had to give a food demo in my orientation class {hence the cookies}. I had part of my measurements wrong, forgot to plug in the mixer BEFORE I began the presentation, my hands were shaky, and on top of that...I forgot a cookie sheet! 

It was kind of crazy because the fifteen or so gals that went before me on previous days seemed so confident, and then here I am...shakin' in my boots! 

I'm grateful for the practice though :) jr high and high school students can be a ruthless at times. If you need someone to do a little grub-demo for ya, let-me-help-you-help me!

Yep, I'm still excited to teach! Any tips on gaining confidence in the classroom? As most of you may know, I am most comfortable when I know you well. At first I can be pretty shy. 

NO MORE OF THAT, ASH. Time to be outgoing and crack jokes 24/7. (really though, I want to be funny!)

{there's my face, and a banana cookie with coconut icing}

Sooo... good news!I met with an academic counselor the day before today {yesterday}, and turns out my 4 year-turned 5 year-could've been 6 year-plan isn't so messed up after all! If you don't recall, I was having some problemos with my schedule, not being able to get in classes and such. Well she helped me out and looks like I'll be able to get out of here in 4 semesters! So two more years. Much better than the 3 I was dreading. 

Surrre I could have probably been a doctor for cryin' out loud in that time, but I'm really happy about it! Let's just cross our fingers and have hope I'll get to the end of this journey.

Well, back to the books. I'll be at the Maxx tonight if you'd like to hit me up or come make some cheap purchases! (final clearance time BABY).

Have a happy ALMOST weekend :) 

Makin' it Quick

Hey ya'll.

I'm studying for my Chem test that is at 12:30pm tomorrow. And I need a break. So HELLO blog world.
I just need to say this... I love Chemistry almost as much as I love walking to class in Logan's freezing weather. It truly GETS me. Love it. Hint: sarcasm? 

Okay okay, enough ranting.

Do you remember those semi/super awkward dances in junior high? Remember how all the boys were on one side, and all the girls were on the other? I got to experience a little taste of that last night...only with college age students. OH it was so funny! Our ward threw a little "jewelry date night." The sisters brought all of their jewelry to us, and then the guys picked a piece of jewelry they liked (or came across)...and the owner was their date for the night! I got to watch the magic from "backstage" with my studly boyfriend who was so kind to tag along and help with setting up and taking down. 

Needless to say, it was a night to remember :)

On Friday night my roommates, their boys and Jon & I went to a comedy show/pizza buffet at Firehouse. YUM? Oh yes. For just over ten dollars you get unlimited pizza and a funny show put on by the guys of Out of the Blue Entertainment. If you are in Cache Valley on a Friday night, I recommend this! Heck, I'll even go with ya ;)

School is school, life is getting exciting, my eyes and brain are tired, my SpringFever is kicking in, Valentine's Day is quickly approaching...I'm lovin' every minute of this semester.

Especially with this cute boy up here. Confession: I'm in love. Please...try to hold back the tears. I mean, who WOULDN'T be in love with this cute face?? But really, Jon is the best thing that has happened to me. What a blessing it was to find how compatible we were 4 years ago as precious little juniors in high school. I have never met anyone more generous, understanding, giving, caring, loving, complimentary, gentle, humble, reliant...and not only that. He honors his priesthood! Wow. Full package right there. 

Well enough of that. I'll end this post with a fun-fact-for-ya:

Did you know Alexander the Great first came across bananas in 327 BC? 

Crazy stuff right there...

umm...yeah.

Ian Eastwood- "Fireflies."

Quite steezy, right?

Negatives

It's supposedly 12 degrees outside, but I'm pretty sure the weatherperson just forgot the negative sign or something. I think my jeans partially froze to my legs and the chill seeped into my two-layers of coats pretty darn fast.
Blast you, Logan! You make me want to cry.
That will be my complaint of the day. Moving on!
This weekend was nothing short of awesome. Jon and I went home last Wednesday to welcome home our "brothers" Ben and Jett. Oh how I have missed having 3 boyfriends all at once ;) I loved watching Jon with them...all the hugging and humongous smiles, aww it was so cute. 

 

There they are :)

Jamie, Jon and I headed down to the hometown late Friday night so we could spend time with the 2 RM's and our other awesome friends. We played Disney Scene-It, I need to be more competitive. Saturday morn we all made a breakfast feast together, then some of us went and did baptisms at the Bountiful Temple. I love the temple. 

THEN the gals (me, Emily, Jamie, Brooke and Karin) went to the Bridal Expo in Sandy.

Congrats to Brooke and Brady... they got engaged on Friday!

I had little Avery with me, and she was so well behaved, it was a joy to watch her.

THEN we paid a little visit to temple square. Jett brought cute Jill, and Ben brought cute Taylor (I believe that is her name). Despite the chilliness, it was a good time.

Sunday was such a good day. Jon and I went to visit my mom and Avery. She fed us Pumpkin pancakes and Ave let us play with her baby dolls. Jett's homecoming talk was at one, he did so great! It makes me so happy to hear how my best friends have grown over the two years they are gone. I love hearing their testimonies and challenging experiences that helped them grow. 

Later on I went with Jonny boy to his house to celebrate birthdays with his family. 

I'm so grateful the parents let me stay at the house when I come to town. I feel bad I pretty much only spend the short hours of the night there, the weekends are always so jam-packed! Hopefully it will calm down a little bit...yeah right! 

And now we are back in Logania. 

Guess what challenge we took on last week? Oh you know...just P90X, nbd. We're on day 9 now, and totally 

loving every minute of it :)

School is going well...nothing new, really! I'll try to keep up with posting more often.

Have a good day, don't freeze!